My Friend

My friend, I am not what I seem. Seeming is but a garment I wear--acare-woven garment that protects me from thy questionings and thee from my negligence.

The 'I' in me, my friend, dwells in the house of silence, and there in it shall remain for ever more, unperceived, unapproachable.

I would not have thee believe in what I say nor trust in what I do--for my words are naught but thy own thoughts in sound and my deeds thy own hopes in action.

When thou sayest, 'The wind bloweth eastward,' I say, 'Aye it dothblow eastward'; for I would not have thee know that my mind doth not dwell upon the wind but upon the sea.

Thou canst not understand my seafaring thoughts, nor would I have thee understand. I would be at sea alone.

When it is day with thee, my friend, it is night with me; yet even then I speak of the noon tide that dances upon the hills and of the purple shadow that steals its way across the valley; for thou canst not hear the songs of my darkness nor see my wings beating against the stars--and I fain would not have thee hear or see. Iwould be with night alone.

When thou ascendest to thy Heaven I descend to my Hell--even then thou callest to me across the unbridgeable gulf, 'My companion, mycomrade,' and I call back to thee, 'My comrade, my companion'--for I would not have thee see my Hell. The flame would burn thy eyesight and the smoke would crowd thy nostrils. And I love my Hell too well to have thee visit it. I would be in Hell alone.

Thou lovest Truth and Beauty and Righteousness; and I for thy sake say it is well and seemly to love these
things. But in my heart I laught at thy love. Yet I would not have thee see my laughter. I would laugh alone.

My friend, thou art good and cautious and wise; nay, thou art perfect--and I, too, speak with thee wisely and cautiously. And yet I am mad. But I mask my madness. I would be mad alone.

My friend, thou art not my friend, but how shall I make thee understand? My path is not thy path, yet together we walk, hand in hand.

Kahlil Gibran

Joy and Sorrow

“Then a woman said,’Speak to us of Joy and Sorrow.’

And he answered: Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.

And the self same well from which your laughter rises was often times filled with your tears.

And how else can it be?

The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.

Is not the cup that hold your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter’s oven?

And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?

When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.

When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.

Some of you say, “Joy is greater than sorrow,” and others say, “Nay, Sorrow is the greater.” But I say unto you, they are inseparable.

Together they come, and when one sits alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.

Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy. Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.

When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall. ”

Kahlil Gibran

Friendship

And a youth said, "Speak to us of Friendship."

Your friend is your needs answered.

He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.

And he is your board and your fireside.

For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace.

When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the "nay" in your own mind, nor do you withhold the "ay."

And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;

For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.

When you part from your friend, you grieve not;

For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.

And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit.

For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.

And let your best be for your friend.

If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.

For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?

Seek him always with hours to live. For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness.

And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.

For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.

Kahlil Gibran

A Lover's Call

Where are you, my beloved? Are you in that little Paradise, watering the flowers who look upon you as infants look upon the breast of their mothers?

Or are you in your chamber where the shrine of Virtue has been placed in your honor, and upon which you offer my heart and soul as sacrifice?

Or amongst the books, seeking human knowledge, while you are replete with heavenly wisdom?

Oh companion of my soul, where are you? Are you praying in the temple? Or calling Nature in the field, haven of your dreams?

Are you in the huts of the poor, consoling the broken-hearted with the sweetness of your soul, and filling their hands with your bounty?

You are God's spirit everywhere; you are stronger than the ages.

Do you have memory of the day we met, when the halo of you spirit surrounded us, and the Angels of Love floated about, singing the praise of the soul's deed?

Do you recollect our sitting in the shade of the branches, sheltering ourselves from Humanity, as the ribs protect the divine secret of the heart from injury?

Remember you the trails and forest we walked, with hands joined, and our heads leaning against each other, as if we were hiding ourselves within ourselves?

Recall you the hour I bade you farewell, and the maritime kiss you placed on my lips? That kiss taught me that joining of lips in Love reveals heavenly secrets which the tongue cannot utter!

That kiss was introduction to a great sigh, like the Almighty's breath that turned earth into man.

That sigh led my way into the spiritual world, announcing the glory of my soul; and there it shall perpetuate until again we meet.

I remember when you kissed me and kissed me, with tears coursing your cheeks, and you said, "Earthly bodies must often separate for earthly purpose, and must live apart impelled by worldly intent."

"But the spirit remains joined safely in the hands of Love, until death arrives and takes joined souls to God."

"Go, my beloved; Love has chosen you her delegate; Over her, for she is Beauty who offers to her follower the cup of the sweetness of life. As for my own empty arms, your love shall remain my comforting groom; you memory, my Eternal wedding."

Where are you now, my other self? Are you awake in the silence of the night? Let the clean breeze convey to you my heart's every beat and affection.

Are you fondling my face in your memory? That image is no longer my own, for Sorrow has dropped his shadow on my happy countenance of the past.

Sobs have withered my eyes which reflected your beauty and dried my lips which you sweetened with kisses.

Where are you, my beloved? Do you hear my weeping from beyond the ocean? Do you understand my need? Do you know the greatness of my patience?

Is there any spirit in the air capable of conveying to you the breath of this dying youth? Is there any secret communication between angels that will carry to you my complaint?

Where are you, my beautiful star? The obscurity of life has cast me upon its bosom; Sorrow has conquered me.

Sail your smile into the air; it will reach and enliven me! Breathe your fragrance into the air; it will sustain me!

Where are you, me beloved? Oh, how great is Love! And how little am I!

Kahlil Gibran

Work

Then a ploughman said, "Speak to us of Work."

And he answered, saying: You work that you may keep pace with the earth and the soul of the earth.

For to be idle is to become a stranger unto the seasons, and to step out of life's procession, that marches in majesty and proud submission towards the infinite.

When you work you are a flute through whose heart the whispering of the hours turns to music.

Which of you would be a reed, dumb and silent, when all else sings together in unison?

Always you have been told that work is a curse and labour a misfortune.

But I say to you that when you work you fulfil a part of earth's furthest dream, assigned to you when that dream was born,

And in keeping yourself with labour you are in truth loving life,

And to love life through labour is to be intimate with life's inmost secret.

But if you in your pain call birth an affliction and the support of the flesh a curse written upon your brow, then I answer that naught but the sweat of your brow shall wash away that which is written.

You have been told also life is darkness, and in your weariness you echo what was said by the weary.

And I say that life is indeed darkness save when there is urge,

And all urge is blind save when there is knowledge,

And all knowledge is vain save when there is work,

And all work is empty save when there is love;

And when you work with love you bind yourself to yourself, and to one another, and to God.

And what is it to work with love?

It is to weave the cloth with threads drawn from your heart, even as if your beloved were to wear that cloth.

It is to build a house with affection, even as if your beloved were to dwell in that house.

It is to sow seeds with tenderness and reap the harvest with joy, even as if your beloved were to eat the fruit.

It is to charge all things you fashion with a breath of your own spirit,

And to know that all the blessed dead are standing about you and watching.

Often have I heard you say, as if speaking in sleep, "he who works in marble, and finds the shape of his own soul in the stone, is a nobler than he who ploughs the soil.

And he who seizes the rainbow to lay it on a cloth in the likeness of man, is more than he who makes the sandals for our feet."

But I say, not in sleep but in the over-wakefulness of noontide, that the wind speaks not more sweetly to the giant oaks than to the least of all the blades of grass;

And he alone is great who turns the voice of the wind into a song made sweeter by his own loving. Work is love made visible.

And if you cannot work with love but only with distaste, it is better that you should leave your work and sit at the gate of the temple and take alms of those who work with joy.

For if you bake bread with indifference, you bake a bitter bread that feeds but half man's hunger.

And if you grudge the crushing of the grapes, your grudge distills a poison in the wine.

And if you sing though as angels, and love not the singing, you muffle man's ears to the voices of the day and the voices of the night.

Kahlil Gibran

Love One Another

Love one another, but make not a bond of love.

Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.

Fill each other's cup, but drink not from one cup.

Give one another of your bread, but eat not from the same loaf.

Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone.

Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.

Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.

For only the hand of life can contain your hearts.

And stand together, yet not too near together.

For the pillars of the temple stand apart.

And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

Kahlil Gibran

Your pain is....

Your pain is the breaking of the shell
that encloses your understanding.

Even as the stone of the fruit must break,
that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain.

And could you keep your heart in wonder
at the daily miracles of your life,
your pain would not seem less wondrous than your joy;

And you would accept the seasons of your heart,
even as you have always accepted
the seasons that pass over your fields.

And you would watch with serenity
through the winters of your grief.

Much of your pain is self-chosen.

It is the bitter potion by which
the physician within you heals your sick self.

Therefore trust the physician,
and drink his remedy in silence and tranquillity:

For his hand, though heavy and hard,
is guided by the tender hand of the Unseen,
and the cup he brings, though it burn your lips,
has been fashioned of the clay which the Potter
has moistened with His own sacred tears.

Kahlil Gibran

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Pain is hurtful and Pain has taught me the meaning of Health, Pleasure, Well-being, Ecstasy and Relief.

The Two Hermits

Upon a lonely mountain, there lived two hermits who worshipped God and loved one another.

Now these two hermits had one earthen bowl, and this was their only possession.

One day an evil spirit entered into the heart of the older hermitand he came to the younger and said, 'It is long that we havelived together. The time has come for us to part. Let us divide our possessions.'

Then the younger hermit was saddened and he said, 'It grieves me, Brother, that thou shouldst leave me. But if thou must needs go, so be it,' and he brought the earthen bowl and gave it to him saying, 'We cannot divide it, Brother, let it be thine.'

Then the older hermit said, 'Charity I will not accept. I will take nothing but mine own. It must be divided.'

And the younger one said, 'If the bowl be broken, of what use would it be to thee or to me? If it be thy pleasure let us rather cast a lot.'

But the older hermit said again, 'I will have but justice and mine own, and I will not trust justice and mine own to vain chance. The bowl must be divided.'

Then the younger hermit could reason no further and he said, 'If it be indeed thy will, and if even so thou wouldst have it let us now break the bowl.'

But the face of the older hermit grew exceedingly dark, and hecried, 'O thou cursed coward, thou wouldst not fight.'

Kahlil Gibran

Wajah Baru

Selamat hari wilayah!

Saya memberi sedikit rona baru kepada blog ini bagi tujuan penambahbaikan. Semua entri yang lama saya tapis semula untuk membuang seberapa banyak emosi yang berada di luar pagar kewarasan akal saya sewaktu saya menulis entri tersebut. Ada sesetengah entri diposkan semula manakala selebihnya yang agak mengarut tidak akan disiarkan lagi.

"Do what makes you happy" - itu yang sedang dan akan saya lakukan sepanjang tahun ini. Saya lebih menfokus kepada hobi dan minat saya. Tibalah masanya untuk saya memberi ruang dan peluang kepada diri sendiri dan menikmati kebersendirian saya.

Ada beberapa perkara yang sudah tidak saya endahkan iaitu sesuatu yang bersifat pemangkin kepada segala kerumitan dan kekusutan. Saya juga tidak mahu dikaburi mata saya oleh ketopengan orang lain lagi. Saya hanya mahu mendengar kata-kata yang benar.

Mulai Februari ini saya kembali menulis di blog ini.

Diakhiri entri ini dengan puisi nukilan A. Ghaffar Abdullah.

Kalau Kau Akan Mencari

Kalau kau akan mencari

laluan cinta itu di mana

kau tanyalah kedua belah matamu

yang melihat segala musibah dunia.

Kalau kau menemui

kesan cinta itu di mana-mana

khabarkanlah kepada kedua telingamu

yang mendengar segala bisikan noda dunia.

Kalau kau masih boleh berbicara

pada alam dan samudera

sampaikan salam ini kepada mereka

yang menanti dengan ufuk cintanya.

Namun, ingatlah kehidupan ada di hatimu

jiwa yang bernyawa

sebenarnya telah mati kali kedua

kalau kau tidak mencari redha-Nya.

Lukisan Hati

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Kanvasnya hanya sekeping hati
yang bertahun dicalit warna luka
dalam kembara mencari makna
sebuah kehidupan
dan ribuan kenangan
menjadi warna-warna basah

ditebar dan dipusar berus sabar tawakal

lalu kering di panas mentari uji

Dia dengan sabar setia
melukiskan terus ke kanvas hidupnya
dengan lakaran pedoman
bersama gerak naluri

tangannya menari-nari ke kanan ke kiri
menebar warna-warna kenangan
warna-warna perjalanan panjang
dicalitnya lagi dengan jaluran mimpi
yang masih sudi singgah menghampiri
bersama untaian pelangi

Setelah tertebar ke seluruh kanvas
warna-warna dari segala kenangan
lalu dengan payah dibingkaikan
diberinya judul impian
dan dalam debar dia berbisik:
Inilah lukisan hati
hadiah buatmu yang mengerti...

- Mya Marja -

Lelaki Yang Patah Sayap Kirinya

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Engkau lelaki yang patah sayap kirinya
Menanggalkan baju dukamu dihamparan kenangan
Melonjak dari jendela kamar yang pecah kacanya
Ingin terbang menerpa bulan
Sambil mengilik sebungkus impian.

Tak kau hirau rayuan pungguk berhiba lara
Yang memilih pilu sengsara tanpa usaha
Kau dengan kental semangat menjerkah gerhana
Dan menahan mentari dari meminta gilirannya.

Terbanglah lelaki yang patah sayapnya
Berpandukan tongkat paruh jentayu yang setia.

Kau bukan lagi lelaki pilu yang merenung jendela
Setiap kali purnama senyum atau retak di balik ara
Kerana kau arif merisik rindu dan mentafsir cinta
Dari sinar mata pemilik kejora.


Nota: Puisi yang dideklamasikan oleh Datuk Siti Nurhaliza di Malam Puisi Utusan ke-12 di Laman Beringin, Istana Budaya baru-baru ini. Puisi yang didedikasikan kepada seorang lelaki yang menonton teater Pak Pandir The Musical di Dewan Filharmonik Petronas bersamaku pada 18 Jun 2009.

Kelip-kelip api di kapal

Baru sedar pasang pelita
Airmata jatuh ke bantal
Baru sedar menanggung derita

Kelapa rebah di kayu jati
Asap nipah bercabang dua
Sungguh tabah jentayu sakti
Patah sayap terbang jua

To all gentlemen in the universe, who are fathers, father-to-be, father wannabe and single gentlemen who have a dream to be a father one day - HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

Siapa Paling Bahagia???

Image: Credit to Sarin and Ki

Sekuntum bunga untuk mu
Setangkai duri untuk ku
Soalnya sekarang, siapa paling bahagia?
Tentu aku, bukan?
Duri yang mengenal kulit, daging, tulang, urat dan darah
Duri yang menjaga bunga, mengawal pohon
Duri yang senantiasa membaca makna sakit.

Oleh Zaen Kasturi

Pedar

Apalah gunanya lagi melantun bicara
Bila ia sudah pun pedar
Dan tidak lagi empuk pada gegendang
Laksana keri menebas jantung
Adakah lalu akal ku
Mengusir fikiran yang semakin kikir
Dek kerana emosi yang semakin membidai
Betah ku sudah tidak bersisa lagi
Jejak ku sudah tidak bertapak lagi
Bicara ku sudah fakir kata-kata lagi
Mujur faham ku datang berbisik
Meletak kekeluargaan pada makna perhubungan
Dan aku diangkat menjadi sebahagian
Kerana itulah bicaranya pedar...

Nite Garden

Pada Usia Ini

Helai-helai daun yang luruh
Kadang-kadang mengingatkan
Di manakah di garis peta ini
Tiba perjalanan dan berdiri kita
Hutan yang diredah
Atau padang yang terentang
Ingatan yang dipapah
Atau mimpi yang tiba-tiba terdiam
Benar, kita tidak harus
Terlalu nostalgik di sini
Atau juga terlalu idealistik
Kerana hakikat lebih nyata
Dari kesamaran sejuta angin
Kita harus lebih berani
Bangun dan menghitung
Seberkas rencana yang kita bawa
Atau serentetan alpa yang mencicirkan
Pada usia ini
Segalanya meminta fikir
Yang lebih bijaksana
Menuntut rasa yang lebih sedar
Sebagai pengembara yang tidak harus
Terbabas dari tuju atau pemburu
Tak terlepas dari sasar
Sambil tunduk dan akur
Pada setiap ketentuan itu
Yang telah ditentukan...


Lim Swee Tin

Aku Bukan Manusia Biasa

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Bukan pilihan ku menjadi manusia biasa
Dengan izin Allah, aku berhak menjadi manusia luar biasa
Yang merebut peluang, bukan memburu jaminan
Aku tidak ingin menjadi rakyat kerdil
Yang takut dan jahil, dijaga rapi oleh negara
Aku ingin menceburkan nasib untuk menjulang impian
Menegak cita untuk jatuh dan bangun
Sejenak aku tidak berhenti berusaha
Kerana disogokkkan sekepal nasi
Aku pilih cabaran hidup, bukan keselesaan hidup
Kenikmatan pencapaian, bukan lesu damai sebuah Uthopia
Aku tidak rela dibingkai kerana mencari rezeki
Atau menggadai maruah demi segenggam padi
Aku tidak akan tunduk pada kuasa
Atau bertelut pada bujukan
Aku tetap mewarisi hak tegak berdiri
Dengan megah dan berani berfikir
Bertindak bagi diriku sendiri
Mengecap madu perjuanganku
Dan menghadapi hidup ini dengan tekad dan rendah diri
Sambil mengatakan :
"Inilah yang telah ku lakukan!"

Nota: Sajak ini telah diberi oleh sahabat ku "Miss Jayce" sewaktu zaman persekolahan dulu. Aku sudah tak ingat nama penulis sajak ini.